An open letter to women seeking self-healing...

An open letter to women seeking self-healing...

Understand... That healing requires a lot of things.

It’ll feel great
It’ll also feel terrible
You’ll have highs
You’ll have lows

You may feel stuck...push through!
Doing the work
...& Understanding

Understanding can simply mean not questioning, & rather letting things flow. Not everything needs to be questioned or delivered with a response, things can “just be.”

Most importantly, understand your body. That it loves you, it wants you to heal, it’s working *with* you and never against you. *Your body is on your side*, it’s not attacking itself & never has been, it’s been fighting for you this whole time!

Understand you don’t deserve your conditions, you didn’t manifest them. Understand we were put on this earth to thrive.

Our bodies are magic the way they work with us & for us.

They NEVER work against us. The things we put them in contact with work against us. Food, alcohol, beverages. Toxic environments, people, habits, & lifestyles. THOSE are what work against us.

Your body is going to tell you what it sure to listen.

Your body will resist what’s not good for it...don’t just brush that aside.

Also, understand that *you* are not other people. Don’t compare yourself. Don’t judge. Don’t hold jealousy, anger, resentment, sorrow, or hate. We must work on releasing all that does not serve our greatest good! Those things will keep us unwell.

Understand that the negative things people do are a reflection of *their* own wounds, *their* unhealed traumas. Understand that you’re above that.

Understand that you must step outside your comfort zone to break free from toxicity, negativity, & to heal.
Read my story on self-healing here: Self-healing

How to re-introduce yourself & kick your watered down-self in the ass!

How to re-introduce yourself & kick your watered down-self in the ass!
There’s levels to this. Many...many...levels!

Are you finding that as well?

Maybe you’re at the beginning of your healing journey from chronic illness or emotionally/mentally? You’ll see soon๐Ÿ˜‰. The deeper you go, the more you’ll grow. That’s A FACT. ๐Ÿ‘Š๐Ÿผ

I thought my journey was only to heal chronic illness. Within the first couple of months I learned it was so much more. I was finding out who I was, what I wanted, I remembered my passions, I found my purpose & the reason I was put here! Joy & inner happiness had come back into my life.

And from then just WOW! That was only the SURFACE of it all! I’ve since been able to work through traumas, healing inner wounds, creating a business and the life I never thought was possible, & finally beginning to feel at home in my own body.

That’s the crazy thing about life that we aren’t often told...WE HAVE A CHOICE! WE get to decide the route we’re going to take, the path we’re going to pursue. WE get to decide h
ow to navigate our own life! Don’t like something? Get rid of it! Want something? Go after it!! When we know we want growth, that’s the first step to heal. When we surrender & make the decision to heal, we grow. The two go beautifully hand in hand.

The process isn’t all rainbows & butterflies, be prepared for that! The deeper you go, well, the *deeper* you go into places you didn’t even know existed within you.

Health flares happen of symptoms that’ll get you feeling like you’ve gone backwards. Emotional flares happen as past pain, anger, & traumas work their way through the surface. WORK through those deep uncomfortable places, be gentle with yourself, they WILL pass, & you’ll thank yourself that you did!

A couple tips for healing/growth work:
• journal: anything! thoughts; affirmations; gratitude
• use YL essential oils
• get out into nature
• eat clean (plants)• remove toxicity: people, places, things• exercise if you’re well enough to
• be present: reflect on your thoughts, emotions, & sensations as they come up (negative & positive)
• do kind things for yourself AND others
• REST, relax, vibe

Healing on any level is a marathon, not a race. Pace yourself, just please keep going๐Ÿ’œ๐ŸŒบMy kickstart course is coming soon- follow me to catch the release. 

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No Rush

No Rush
I knew you needed a laugh! How many of us can relate to that right now with distance learning taking place? Let's hope no-one has actually experienced it LOL! 
In all seriousness, though, what has been happening the past few weeks is traumatic in every sense. We are going through it collectively. Trauma is often thought of "too much too fast." Of course we are exhausted. Of course we are afraid. Of course we are itching to get back to normal. 
But in the rush to return to normal, let's use this time to consider which parts of normal are really worth rushing back to? If you think about it normal never was. Our pre-covid existence was not normal other than we normalized greed, inequity, depletion, disconnection, rage, hate and lack. We should not long to return to that.
When no major disasters are taking place, we get lulled into thinking the future is certain — that we’ll wake up in the morning, that we won’t get hit by a car on our way to work, that we won’t get fired, that we won’t pick up some terrible disease from the bacteria living on our computer keyboards. But the future is never certain — and we’re fortunate any time we get to pretend like it is.
I realize it’s not a particularly comforting thought to dwell on — that nothing is in our control, now or ever. But maybe we can find solace in the fact that yes, these are uncertain times, but they always are. And maybe, while absolutely nothing feels “normal” right now, we can take comfort in the uncertainty itself as the only normal we have.
When circumstances are out of your control, it’s easy to become overwhelmed by fear and negative emotions. You may think that bottling up how you feel, trying to put on a brave face, or forcing yourself to be positive will provide the best outcome. But denying or suppressing your emotions will only increase stress and anxiety and make you more vulnerable to depression. 
I can tell you that having a routine for your days is huge for emotional wellbeing. Each person in your household should have a routine that they follow. I  have been on one since the start of all of this to make sure I stay in a healthy mindset. I know how I can get if there is endless time available and no productivity. That is a no-no for me. 
So, here is what works for me...I wake up early and start gratitude journaling. I then put on my essential oils specific for how I am feeling or need to feel. Most days it has been the following oils (Endoflex for energy and thyroid support, gratitude, grounding, stressaway, present time, joy, progessence plus for hormonal balance.

On weekdays, I am teaching online all day. I check in with my students to make sure they are understanding their work and feeling well. Around noon, I check in with my family and we eat lunch. Once 3 pm hits, If it's a nice day we go on a family walk. Then we take advantage of all of us being home together at a reasonable hour and have a family dinner. Weekends are free for all- we go with the flow depending on weather and things we have to catch up on. If you haven't made yourself follow a routine yet- go do so. You will feel much better. 
Here are some additional thoughts that have crossed my mind over the past few weeks-

For the parents...Since I changed my mindset from home-schooling to home-learning I've learned ballet from my daughter, she learned how to ride a bike and the importance of taking vitamins from me. We went on a scavenger hunt, we played hide and go seek countless times. We've laughed so hard our bellies hurt. Remember learning can happen in many ways. Go and learn together. 

For the teachers...Ditch those timers, scheduled tests/quizzes & mindless busy work. Let the students self-pace, watch recordings, have a personalized check in with you. That is what's cool now. We begged for no tests so let's stop teaching like they still exist. Teach kids. No one is going to be looking at their elementary or middle school report card. Make greater connections. Learn some new ways of technology yourself- even if you mess it up at first. 
Let's not rush. Let's breathe. Let's not live wondering about the future- that only creates anxiety. Let's stay right here right now. 

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Mind of a hustler; heart of a queen

Mind of a hustler; heart of a queen
I love a hustler. I love someone who is unashamed about what they want for their lives and refuses to let anyone talk them out of it. I don’t mean that they never feel intimidated by their own audacity. I don’t mean that they don’t occasionally fall into the trap of other people’s opinions. The hustlers I know, they’re human and they face the same insecurities as the rest of us. But when push comes to shove, they don’t overthink it or debate it; they just put their heads down and get back to work. That’s what hustle means to me: it means that you’re willing to work for it, whatever it is, whatever you want, and you don’t assume anyone is going to give it to you, but you know it can be yours. Where are all my hustlers at?! 

Pressure is a privilege, I remind myself again and again. I thought I’d remind you too in case you’ve also got pressure in your life or your work this season. Pressure means that someone is counting on you. Pressure means you’re about to level up. Pressure is what makes a diamond— what a gift to be doing something that MATTERS enough to feel pressure! You WILL rise up in spite of this pressure. You’ll become who you’re meant to be because of this pressure. Accept it as the price of admission and go show us what greatness looks like! ๐Ÿ‘Š๐Ÿป 
Mind of a hustler. Heart of a Queen.

Who was your Ms. Barber?

Who was your Ms. Barber?
Be here, Be you, BELONG. I love those words by Brene Brown. Top educators teach with heart. Content aside- a student will perform for you if you let them see your heart. I know this because I lived it. Ms. Barber. The ONLY teacher I would have done anything not to disappoint. And this didn't come into play until high school. Imagine all those years of education lost feeling disconnected from school?
So let's first make no mistake. I was a pain in the ass in school. I'm not proud of this but it is key to my story. My apologies go out to each and every teacher I had. Yes, I was the kid that you were warned about. You know, the one that when your list of students comes out everyone says "OHH, you'll earn your paycheck with that one." From about 4th grade on, I had no interest in anything but the social aspect of school. Ancient civilizations were not on my priority list of things to know. 
You are probably thinking to yourself "what was going on in her life that caused those behaviors? "What was she lacking at home?" Truth is, nothing at all. I had parents who were involved. I had access to materials, sports, extra help, etc. I had a large group of friends; and average ability. Yet...I wasn't connected. I own that.
So, what was it about Ms. Barber that had me eating out of the palm of her hand? Was she really young and cool? Did she let me get away with things? Did she let us have "fun Fridays?" No, no and nope. 
Never underestimate the power of these two words...time and trust. There is a certain energy to it; an equation. See Ms. Barber showed up with her whole heart. She gave me her time; something that you can't put a price on. She brought tough conversations into ordinary moments and let it be known that being vulnerable was actually showing strength..
Want to know where I ended up because of Ms. Barber? Watch the video down below. And if you see Ms. Barber, tell her I said "thank you."

In the Arena

In the Arena

In life, I understand that self-protection is always our default. It’s how we are wired. However, I believe this pandemic experience is a massive experiment in our abilities to surrender and accept being vulnerable. 

In the last week, while concern about the Corona Virus has increased, it has been interesting to observe the behaviors and/or the words of others. The ways people are handling this time of scarcity, uncertainty, and isolation is from a place of fear. Rightfully so. I know it is hard to feel alone in your struggle and fear. I know the pain of feeling isolated and the pain of a special occasions going other than planned. 

As a special-needs mom, and a teacher, I have become exceptional at accepting uncertainty. This is not the first time that I’ve been told we’re going to have to do something that feels nearly impossible. It is not the first time that I’ve had no guarantees on the outcome that I tirelessly pray for. I’ve learned to surrender to what is and not waste time and energy putting up resistance. In the end, we can only change what we can control.

With that being said, while this period of time in our life is hard, we NEED to dig deep. My greatest push to remain calm is my children. I know they are watching and learning about how to respond to stress and uncertainty. I want to wire them for resilience, not panic. Resilience is the capacity to recover quickly and persevere. So, while this situation sucks for ALL; we have to pick back up. We are all grieving the loss of something at this time. Let’s show empathy with the array of experiences because our perspectives are based on what is in front of us at the given time. 

The Corona virus is affecting us all in some way- whether directly or indirectly. Lets remember…

*People who are extremely worried about their older family members
*Those that are already sick w/ the virus
*Those that are immunocompromised
*Kids that miss their friends at school
*Families that don’t have food
*Those w/ asthma or other pre-existing conditions
*Small Business owners struggling to earn an income
*Parents trying to manage working & their own kids school work all day
*HS Seniors w/out proms and graduations
*Any student at the graduating level of schooling
*Health care workers on the front line
*Teachers missing their students 
*Athletes that lost their final season of sports

Some suggestions for parents…

*Home schooling is a new thing for most of us. Many of us are trying to work from home while tending to our children and making sure they stay up to date on their school work. There are many plates that we are trying to keep up in the air. Rather than setting academic goals every day focus on spending extra time just being together with no expectations. There will be a time to resume school work. But accept that it may not be now because without emotional regulation, children can’t learn.

*Let them experience boredom. Every minute does not need to be accounted for. Remember just as we can come out of our skin at times, they will too. They will spend hours complaining before they settle into that strange place that’s rarely visited by today’s children – their imagination.  We don’t need to entertain them, we need to model for them. Boredom is sacred. We shouldn’t deny our children this experience.

*Never forget that your little family is the best team you could ever have. Lean on each other and soak in this precious time that you have been given to reconnect. 

Some suggestions for teachers…

*Breathe. The space that you educate from doesn’t need to be the classroom. Lead with your heart. The students will feel that no matter what curriculum you throw at them. Make this new space one that the kids look forward to showing up for. Let them release the crushing weight of what is going on. You are the guardian of this new space. Make it count. Find a way to make this experience memorable for them in a positive way. 

As we move forward let's give each other grace. And don't forget to give yourself some. Just know that, if you are struggling in anyway during this quarantine, I am here. I’ll be connecting online and you are welcome to join me at any point. The space will be safe and exactly what you need. Just click the link below. 

Stay safe. Stay well. Stay connected

Stop saying "tomorrow"

Stop saying "tomorrow"

When it comes to getting results, it takes motivation and ability. Motivation makes things happen.

Where there’s no will, there’s no way. One of the best ways to improve your personal effectiveness is to master your motivation and find your drive.

If you can master motivation, you can deal with life’s setbacks, as well as inspire yourself to always find a way forward, and create new experiences for yourself, and follow your growth.

1. Connect to your values.

This is the ultimate secret. If you can connect the work you do to your values, even in small ways, you can change your game. One of my values is learning and growth.

2. Find your WHY.

Figure out a compelling purpose. Turn this into a one-liner.

For example, when I fall off the horse, I remind myself I’m here to “make others great.” This gets me back on track, sharing the best of what I know.

3. Change your WHY.

Sometimes you’re doing things for the wrong reason. Are you doing that task to get it done, or to learn something new? Just shifting your why can light your fire.

4. Change your HOW.

You can instantly find your tasks more enjoyable by shifting from getting them done, to doing them right.

I think of it as mastering your craft. Make it artful.

Sometimes slower is better. Other times, the key is to make it a game and actually speed it up. You can set time limits and race against the clock. Changing your how can get you out of ruts and find new ways to escape the mundane.

5. Remember the feeling.

Flipping through your head movies and scenes is one of the fastest ways to change how you feel.

Remember the feeling. How did you feel during your first kiss? What about laying on the grass on a sunny day?

When you feel good, you find your motivation faster.

6. Shift to past, present or the future.

Sometimes you need to be here, now. Sometimes, the right here, right now sucks. The beauty of shifting tense is you can visualize a more compelling future, or remember a more enjoyable past.

At the same time, if you catch yourself dwelling on a painful past, get back to right here, right now, and find the joy in the moment.

You’ll improve your temporal skills with practice.

8. Take action.

Here’s a secret that once you know it, can change your life. Action often comes before motivation.

You simply start doing an activity and then your motivation kicks in. Nike was right with “Just do it.” For example, I don’t always look forward to my workout, but once I start, I find my flow.

9. Link it to good feelings.

Find a way to link things to good feelings. For example, play your favorite song when you’re doing something you don’t like to do.

It has to be a song that makes you feel so great that it overshadows the pain of the task. It’s hard to tell yourself you don’t like something when it feels so good.

10. Impress yourself first.

This is how people like Peter Jackson or James Cameron or Stephenie Meyer inspire themselves. They make the movies or write the books that impress themselves first. They connect their passion to the work and they don’t depend on other people setting the bar. Their internal bar becomes their drive.

11. “CHOOSE” to.

If you tell yourself you “HAVE” to do this or you “MUST” do that or you “SHOULD” do this, you can weaken your motivation.

The power of choice and simply reframing your language to “CHOOSE” to can be incredibly empowering and exactly the motivating language you need to hear. Choose your words carefully and make them work for you.

12. Pair up.

This is one of my favorite ways to make something fun. One person’s painful task, is another’s pleasure. Pair up with somebody who complements your skill or who can mentor you and get you over the humps.

At the end of the day, all motivation really comes down to self-motivation, and you get better at motivation by building your self-awareness.

Learn how to push your own buttons from the inside out.

The power of your mind...

The power of your mind...
What are you doing on a daily basis to achieve the goals you have for your life? This is the question we should be focused on, but we aren’t . Often, we are too busy comparing ourselves to other people which causes envy and misery in our own lives. We continuously berate ourselves for making mistakes disregarding the fact that if you don't make mistakes, there are no challenges and no chances for personal growth. We put our happiness in the hands of others knowing full well that true happiness can only come from within. This line of thinking and behavior is toxic and has to be brought to an end in order to get what we want out of life... & I mean now. 

Focusing on things that make you feel bad will only prolong negative emotions. I encourage you to shift your focus from the external to the internal and go after what you really want. There are lots of victories ahead for you, and to reach them you have build a sustainable solution that will open doors to success in every direction you choose.

I see how hard you are working. I know how much you want to change. Your work and your life is ever evolving, revealing new layers. Just when you think you’ve reached a new level, there’s another layer hiding underneath that will take you to new depths of growth. When reading this, I encourage you to be open to the possibility of change. Your next breakthrough is right around the corner.

Not second in my heart...

Not second in my heart...
Dear Elyssa,

You didn’t make me a mother. You were my second child. Not in my heart, but one did come before you.

With you, it was different. There was no elaborate shower.  I didn’t take many photos, didn’t spend every waking moment reading. My mind was busier; worried about your health. My body more tired because I was caring for your big sister.

And then, before I knew what happened (because time passes so much quicker the second time around), you were here.  And in an instant, that was it. I was yours. A mom of two beautiful little girls. We were a family of four. 

The worries eventually lessened, though apparently still present. My thoughts drifted often. They questioned if I was managing my time, energy and love equally enough. You having some additional needs was new to us all. The time spent at appointments or in the hospital away from home were difficult to endure. Though, I’m sure it was most difficult for you.

But, Oh Elyssa, my sweet girl, the lessons you’ve helped me learn.

You’ve taught me that kids truly are resilient, and that my love covers the gap for you or your big sister when i’m not there.

You’ve taught me to slow down, chill and roll with the punches.

You’ve taught me how absolutely strong I can be, and you’ve given me a confidence I lacked the first time around.    

But more than anything, you taught me that a heart is limitless in size, and that my love for you is the antidote to any fear that pops up.

So, it’s true. You didn’t make me a mother.

But you sure made me a better one.

Self-care shouldn't be overlooked

Self-care shouldn't be overlooked

Self-care is often a very overlooked thing. It is enforcing a morning routine and cooking yourself healthy meals and no longer running from your problems and calling the distraction a solution. It is often doing the ugliest thing that you have to do, like sweat through another workout or tell a toxic friend you don’t want to see them anymore or figure out a way to accept yourself so that you’re not constantly exhausted from trying to be everything, all the time and then needing to take deliberate breaks to do basic things like drop some oil into a bath and read People magazine.

A world in which self-care has to be such a trendy topic is a world that is sick. Self-care should not be something we resort to because we are so exhausted that we need some reprieve from our own internal pressure. True self-care is not salt baths and cake, it is making the choice to build a life you don’t need to escape from.

It often means looking your failures square in the eye and re-strategizing. It is disappointing people. It is making sacrifices for others. It is living a way that other people won’t, so you can live in a way that other people can’t.

It is letting yourself be normal. Regular. It is deciding how much of your anxiety comes from not actualizing your latent potential, and how much comes from the way you were being trained to think before you knew what was happening.

If you find yourself having to regularly indulge in consumer self-care, it’s because you are disconnected from actual self-care, which has little to do with “treating yourself” and a whole lot do with parenting yourself and making choices for your long-term wellness.

It is learning how to stop trying to “fix yourself
” and start trying to take care of yourself… and maybe finding that taking care attends to a lot of the problems you were trying to fix. It is becoming the person you want and are meant to be. Someone who knows that salt baths and chocolate cake are ways to enjoy life – not escape from it.

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